MY MOTHER IS INSISTANT THAT I HATE HER

MY MOTHER IS SO CONVINCED THAT I HATE HER THAT SHE INVOKED THE GOOD LORD INTO BY SAYING "GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH"...

GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH, HAHA...

IF HE KNOWS THE TRUTH ABOUT ME AND HOW I "ALLEGEDLY" FEEL ABOUT HER, THEN WHY DOESN'T HE TELL HER ALREADY?

OH, BUT WAIT, I THINK, NO, I KNOW SHE'S ONLY SAYING THIS SO SHE CAN HAVE THE SATISFACTION OF BEING RIGHT AND TO GAIN SYMPATHIES FROM THOSE SHE'S KNOWN TO HAVE "CONVINCED" TO SEE HER WAY OF THINKING...

OH, I KNOW I'M BEING PETTY BY VENTING, BUT SHE REALLY DOES NOT KNOW ME AT ALL, PLUS I HIGHLY DOUBT SHE'D EVER GET WISE ENOUGH TO COME ONTO THIS WEBSITE...

DO I HATE HER? NO, BUT I DO NOT LIKE HER PERSONALITY OR CHARACTER AND I FEEL I'VE HAD TO ENDURE HER TIRADES OVER THE YEARS BECAUSE OF HER ANIMOSITY AND HATRED TOWARDS MY FATHER...

DO I GO ABOUT EXPRESSING THIS IN THE WRONG WAY AT TIMES? YES, I DO AND I KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT I CAN & NEED TO BE BETTER ABOUT DOING SO, BUT THAT STUBBORN PART OF ME, THE ONE I GET FROM HER, GETS IN THE WAY...

I GUESS MY ONLY TRUE FAULT IN THE SCHEME OF THINGS IS THE FACT THAT I SEE MY MOTHER'S BULLSH*T FOR WHAT IT IS, SEE/SEEN HER FLAWS & FAULTS, HER TRUE NATURE, AND AM NOT AFRAID TO CALL HER ON IT MOST OF THE TIME...

AND EVEN WITH CARRYING THIS IN ME CAUSE I CANNOT PROPERLY VENT, I STILL LOVE HER AS BEST AS I CAN, I REALLY TRY MY BEST TO BE UNDERSTANDING, BUT IT IS HARD TO SHOW UNDERSTANDING TO A PERSON WHO IS HOLDING ONTO 50+ YEARS OF BITTERNESS, ANIMOSITY, AND HURT, WHO IS STUBBORN & BELIEVES THEY ARE RIGHT IN THEIR THINKING, EVEN WHEN THEY ARE DEAD WRONG...

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anonymous Parents September 14, 2020 at 12:07 pm 0 0