I DON T HATE MOM I JUST DO NOT CARE FOR HER WAYS

I DO NOT HATE MY MOTHER, I DO NOT FEEL BITTERNESS TOWARD HER, I JUST DO NOT LIKE HER NOR DO I LIKE WHAT SHE STANDS FOR...

DOES OT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD TO HAVE EVERYONE DRUM UP SYMPATHIES FOR YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A MOTHER AND HAVE EMBELLISHED THE MAJORITY OF SH*T THAT COMES OUT OF YOUR MOUTH...

DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD TO B*TCH AND COMPLAIN TO AND ABOUT OTHERS BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN UNRESOLVED ISSUES WHILE TELLING THEM THEY NEED TO RESOLVE THEIR OWN...

DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD TO TALK TO OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS ABOUT HOW I DO NOT HAVE A JOB NOR CONTRIBUTE TO THE HOUSE (WHILE ALWAYS ELIMINATING THE FACT THAT YOU SAID I DID NOT HAVE TO WORK WHILE FINISHING SCHOOL OR HOW I WILLINGLY OFFERED UP MY SNAP BENEFITS ONCE I RECEIVED THEM) NOR 'HELP' TO TAKE CARE OF HER DUE TO HER POOR PHYSICAL HEALTH...

TO BE CONSTANTLY TOLD I'M FULL BULLSH*T BECAUSE I WILL NOT 'ADMIT' TO HAVING ANIMOSITY AND BITTERNESS (HER WORDS, NOT MINE) TOWARDS HER IS F*CKING RIDICULOUS, IT'S AS IF SHE'S LOOKING FOR YET ANOTHER REASON FOR OTHERS TO PITY HER, TO ABSOLVE HER OF HER FLAWS AND MISTAKES BECAUSE SHE HAS THE TITLE OF MOTHER...

TO BE CONSTANTLY TOLD I AM LIKE MY FATHER BECAUSE I'M (IN HER WORDS) A USER, MANIPULATOR, SELFISH, UNGRATEFUL, LAZY, ETC., IS F*CKED UP, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'VE HEARD IT ALL OF YOUR LIFE, BUT ARE NEVER REALLY GIVEN THE SUPPORT ONE NEEDS OR DESERVES BECAUSE 'I AM NOT SPECIAL' NOR AM I 'IMPORTANT' (OK, MAYBE I AM BEING A BIT PETTY WITH THIS ONE, BUT SERIOUSLY)...

IF I AM SO HORRIBLE, HOW CAN YOU LAY CLAIM TO MY SUCCESSES IN THE FACE OF OTHERS BUT TEAR ME DOWN BEHIND CLOSED DOORS AROUND FAMILY AND ANYONE WHO IS WILLING TO LISTEN (ARE YOU TRYING TO KEEP ME IN MY PLACE, KEEP ME HUMBLED, TRYING TO SHOW ME I'M NO BETTER THAN THE REST OF MY FAMILY)...

I WILL ADMIT TO BEING OVERTLY CRITICAL OF OTHERS (SHE FAILS TO REALISE CHILDREN INHERIT GOOD & BAD TRAITS FROM "BOTH" PARENTS), TO BEING NON-CONFRONTATIONAL, TO DOING WHATEVER OTHERS TELL ME/ASK OF ME, BUT DOES THIS MAKE ME A 'HORRIBLE' PERSON...

DOES SHE HONESTLY THINK SHE CAN WEAR ME DOWN, TO BEND TO HER WILL, HER WAY OF THINKING...

SEE, IF I TRULY DID THINK LIKE HER, OPERATED AS SHE DOES, I'D BE WORSE OFF THAN I ALREADY AM, AS NO ONE WOULD WANT TO BE AROUND ME...

THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THIS, I COULD GO ON ABOUT MY MOTHER'S FLAWS, I REALLY COULD, BUT IF I DID THAT, I WOULD BE JUST LIKE, IF NOT, WORSE THAN HER (PERHAPS I HAVE ALREADY DONE SO)...

SEE, I DO NOT HATE MY MOTHER, I JUST DO NOT CARE FOR HER AS A PERSON AND SEE, I BELIEVE SHE KNOWS THIS, BUT SHE'D RATHER HAVE ME SAY WHAT SHE WANTS TO HEAR SO SHE CAN FEEL VINDICATED, SOMETHING I DO NOT BELIEVE SHE IS ENTITLED TO...

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anonymous Parents September 13, 2020 at 4:06 pm 0 0