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I hate school so much! It's SO ANNOYING! Most of my subjects are stupid and useless, and I hate that I have to go 5 days a week for 7 FREAKING HOURS!
I have to take Chinese as a class, don't get me wrong I'm not saying anything about the race or language itself, but it's just so hard! My brain just can't wrap itself around having an entire character for every word and having to pronounce every word in a specific tone. I've been struggling with it all my life! And worse my teacher assigns homework EVERY FREAKING CLASS! LIKE IT'S NOT EVEN NECESSARY AT ALL! IT'S JUST A STUPID WASTE OF TIME AND US STUDENTS HAVE SOCIAL LIVES TO ATTEND TO! IT DOESN'T EVEN HELP US LEARN? ISN'T THAT SUPPOSED TO BE THE POINT OF HOMEWORK? The entire class is just a dull, barren 80 minutes of stumbling through Chinese word after Chinese word, broken up with stressful projects and tests, the way my teacher teaches it.
I also have to take Drama as a class, and I hate it. Everyone else at my school likes it, but I despise it with every ounce of my energy. I am an ambivert, but I switch heavily to my introvert side when I have to present anything at all (except when I make YouTube videos for some reason). And I hate acting! Like I don't know what the problem is! Some people can use their bodies to act and channel their energy into true art. But I just can't seem to grasp that. All I feel when I get up on a stage and act is utter humiliation. I feel everyone's eyes on me and I feel like the second I do something, especially the more extravagant movements we have to do sometimes, everyone will laugh at me. I know it probably won't happen, but I can't get over that feeling! And every year somehow I end up with bullies or at least jerks in my Drama class, and they laugh so hard whenever the poor kid who happens to be on stage messes up. They laugh at me specifically sometimes and I JUST WANT TO STAB THEIR HEARTS OUT.
We also have a class called I&S, which is just the equivalent of Social Studies for most other schools. Everyone at my school hates it, but I hate it a bit less. But I still hate it. It's the dullest 80 minutes you can possibly experience, the only worse thing being sitting in an empty grey room with one lightbulb for 80 minutes straight. It doesn't give homework a lot, but I still hate it because of how dry it is. And it even becomes stressful at times, when we do our tests and assessments. And the teacher plays favorites. She has me as one of the "teacher's pets", but I look at the way she treats the kids she doesn't like and it breaks my heart. (Except the kids whose guts I hate.)
Finally, grades. FREAKING GRADES AND TESTS. I hate them so much. You know what they say about the human brain being the most complex and intelligent object on earth? Grades reduce that to a single. Freaking. Number. We are so much more than that. SO much more than some red marks on a test paper or the numbers sitting on our report cards that seem to sneer at us and say "you just got OWNED, sucker! Hope your IQ is higher than your grade!" So why do we only ever get judged by our grades, not who we are as human beings? It makes us stressed 24/7 and even kept me awake almost an entire night once.
And worse? Sometimes we ARE judged by who we are as human beings. And not in a good way. Our school is sexist and favors girls over boys, thinking that girls are model students and that boys are smelly, hairy, noisy beasts who deserve to be kept on chains with spiked collars. I am a boy and I hate that we are judged this way. To be honest, I fit into the "nerd/geek/dork" stereotype in many ways. And I am okay with it and I wish the school would accept that many people are bigger than their narrow little pinprick of stereotypes. Teachers at our school are also homophobic at times, but thankfully, they aren't racist.
I used to like school when I was in fifth grade and below. Now, in middle school, it's just an abyss of boredom riddled with ores of stress and social anxiety. Not to mention the ever-flowing river of lava at the bottom that is bullying, and the creatures that prowl the abyss that are teachers.
I have avoided swearing for this entire rant, but I just need to say this.
FUCK YOU SCHOOL.

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School March 02, 2021 at 4:49 am 2 0