it feels like i don t matter to him anymore

my bf has been distant for sometime now for no reason. at least, i think there's no reason. i wouldn't know, because he won't talk to me. ever since we started dating, i've tried to give him all the love and support that i can, and space when i think he needs it. i've never thought about my future without him in it. i've spent hundreds of dollars on him at this point. he's also my first serious relationship, and i'm his. he's seen every part of my body, and every step forward we've taken, it's been his doing. our first kiss? he did it. us moving in together? he brought it up first. sex? he brought that up first too. marriage? you guessed it. all him. we're relatively young, so of course him saying and doing things like that is a big deal. we've been together for nearly two years and i swear i've been so careful. i really thought i was gonna spend the rest of my life with him, and started planning my future so i can stay with him. he's been there for some of the messiest parts of my life and it hurts that it feels like he wants nothing to do with me now. today was the last straw. i texted him once today, and that was this morning. i told him good morning with a petname and a smiley face; our normal. he never responded, and then i saw him online on discord, so i messaged him. just his name with a question mark. he went offline right after. i deleted the message, left the vc, and cried. i wanted to scream, but it's late, so i didn't. i don't want to break up with him, but it's getting to the point that i can't take it anymore.

whoever read this far, thank you so much. you make me feel heard.

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anonymous Relationships August 14, 2022 at 12:18 am 0 2