Pissed off

Like I'm pretty good at seeing through multiple lens and trying to understand where a person in coming from based on that, their individual awareness of self and others and their own experiences and beliefs. That being said I legit can't stand it when people are hypocrictal and sanctimonious. Like WTF?! if you are acting like an asshole just fucking say, don't hide behind some stupid mask pretending like you are a god and your shit don't stink. Take responsibility and own it the fuck up. When I'm being a dick, I'm going to tell you I am being one, I'm not going to prance around and act like nothing ever happened. I legit hate humans, they are the fucking worst, save a handful. I don't actually hate them. I hate the stupid things they do and say. For real, does anyone ever just stop being douchebags?

I'm getting to this point where I'm just upset at everyone because they are liars and making shitty decisions that not only affect them but their kids and people around them. Why do they not see how dumb it is...? I think I need to go back to therapy this year because I'm needing to practice that whole radical acceptance thing... Again.

I feel like maybe I'm becoming too self-critical and therefore am becoming more critical and less accepting of the people around me. I wonder if maybe there is a way to help them indirectly? Because directly trying to help them doesn't really work. You can't really help those that don't want the help, maybe that applies to all help...

It's hard to know what to do in these situations I dislike when people create unnecessary conflict and I wish it would just stop, like that people could one day just open their eyes and not be blinded by all the stupid petty shit and material possessions. That they would actually cherish the children that they brought into the world instead of trying to figure out how to get away from kids, or that they would stop taking out all of their own frustrations on their kids that didn't actually do anything. It's really disgusting to witness and it's horrifying to think that these things and far worse happen in every little nook and cranny of the world every millisecond. It's too much to even think about or comprehend, the sadness that comes from it is deafening and then we have all these people just doing all the same stuff over and over again, the revolving door, how can they shut a door that is always open? But it is a choice, once they become aware. It may be hard, but they can shut those doors, the pain could end with them, but they choose to continue those cycles of treating their partners, their kids, their animals, the world as the abusers before treated them. How depressing, how incredibly despairing. Will it ever stop. Why don't they stop?

Any Joy in this world is swiftly taken, merely a snowflake in a desert. Nobody wants to change, nobody wants to grow, just stay stuck in your stubborn ways... That'll show 'em... ...how hard your heart became. When will we ever learn?


Well, I'm not as furious as I was when I came here. Just depressed lol.

If anyone ever reads this, please just have this one takeaway.
****Don't make others suffer because you did.****

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Star Miscellaneous December 05, 2021 at 1:21 am 1 0