14 years in a relationship, I wasn't the best partner and damn sure not the worst. I've been beaten, threatened, turned on. I am a keep your problems in-house because airing them out shows weakness. She is the opposite. She would lie cheat steal just so she wouldn't be wrong. The problem I had was, she would apologize quick to make it seem like it was ok. Letting it go quickly became a easy thought process. I'd be hurt but forget it so life could move on. That is where I fucked up. I had been hit kicked almost stabbed because I let it go. Now after all the years and a kid later, it's hard to let go. I want to be the dad I didn't have but with raising him how can I show him that's not how your home life is supposed to be if that's all he sees? Its a damned if I do, damned if I don't situation. This is the lowest point in my life and I can't seem to get anything right. A constant down hill snowball running through a shit plant decent. I have more but at this moment I'm already feeling bad for dropping this shit on everyone else. Sorry. Have a good night
LRelationships May 10, 2023 at 3:15 am
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Letting it go became a easy thought process.... I would be hurt but forget it so life could move on.... I was being harmed in increasingly worse ways and I kept letting it go
It started with abuse, attempts to solicit, harassment and stalking by security working for what is now elite residential concierge.... chris b, superintendent agem, management like carmine l and filipino and black people on cleaning and maintenance staff of sixty Absolute Avenue marilyn monroe tower.... some shown here ****://****.ccitoronto****/sites/default/uploads/images/condovoice/CCI-T-Condovoice-Fall2021-fb23-F.jpg Members Occasional visits by a former manipulative roommate aditi poorna s who attempted to pimp me out while preventing me from getting sleep almost every night and bringing others over to help her abuse me.... years later showing up at this building, then getting the superintendent to let her into my home by passing her off as someone else on the security team during the pandemic
Residents like james e and nicola b, barbara or barb k, bernice or berenice and brent p, gino s and their families and friends tried to force me to acknowledge desperate creeps like sickly pale skinny 'steve' the red hairy balding thief introduced by bernice or bernice p who looked like the creep who showed up at the lounge usually soon after I did with a filipina wingwoman both on apple laptops.... the one he was using had text scrolling across it nonstop and I didn't think the macbooks might be ones my mother had given me which meant staff had given them access to my condo and were shamelessly stealing and using my items while telling creeps where I was.... and brazilian alcoholic cigarette smoker paulo the pothead who the argentinean who gossiped with barb k every Friday introduced.... both stalkers who force met me in the elevator james e joined other residents on my floor to solicit female lookalikes and prostitutes who looked like me, inviting assholes to parties with these women, so that they would all have an excuse to mess with me.... the harassment followed me everywhere I went, with people on transit, in schools, stores and training all recruited to help the ugliest, most undesirable misogynists harm me
The short and very obese black old woman wearing a head scarf who decided to approach me in the lounge telling me she wanted me to pretend to be her daughter so she could use that daughter's credit card was a crazy who was encouraged by other insane idiots to follow me into the building and pretend we're connected. She even showed up at the same doctor's office one time with the ugliest black dudes in tow.... one of those losers even decided to passive aggressively threaten me right before registering to see the doctor saying that people who talked were given Caribbean smiles, with a female witness who called herself orion watching
A fat black woman who looked like the short, obese black woman with a head wrap also showed up for the first building summer party with straightened hair and laughed while bernice p told me that they had organized bikini wearing Brazilian dancers for their husbands amusement since they're older and have been married for a while.... c leandro pretended to know nothing when I mentioned the songs being ones i listen to every weekend afternoon.... later a woman, possibly carmine, invited me to dance in a small group directly opposite that black woman and barb refused to give me a bottle of party wine when I was leaving, even though they had lots left over and offered it to fellow creeps, until after the fat black woman loudly demanded one.... helping ensure I left with her.... she repeatedly and mockingly asked me which floor I lived on
Many days later, the same fat black woman showed up in the washroom of the absolute gym, which I had entered previously, and said she found some keys asking if they were mine.... after I told her that I still had mine on me, she pulled out a building key attached to the same uncommon keyring as my spare as I was telling her to hand it to front desk staff.... note the building allows staff including elite residential concierge to access the unit and I didn't know if that was actually my key
One day as I was preparing to toss out some trash, I noticed three unknown black adult males loitering around outside my unit.... I went to throw the trash and they all stared at me and talked between themselves, leaving soon after I hurried back in.... many days later, right after I left the building, those guys quickly walked past me and went into the same building.... I saw them go to the set of elevators I had left but wasn't able to catch up with them.... still I noticed that one elevator was headed up, during a low use time, and only stopped my floor.... I asked the short indian female security guard, who said her name was aman, about them and she only said she had seen them before.... I had to get somewhere and was forced to leave but was worried that they might be entering my residence while I was out.... when I reported them later the same punjabi kaur, who later became security supervisor, mentioned I should've reported them when they were hanging around.... even though another report of a smirking young man who took the elevator up with me and didn't press a floor number or get off on my floor was claimed as non-existent on video cameras, even though I reported it as soon as I could and had spoken to the front desk before getting on the elevator, by kama too.... at least one of those black guys looked like one of the dudes who showed up twice wearing the company shirt and caused many issues as I was trying to put items into storage
The older obese black stranger, who demanded I say hello back to him after he walked in front if the lounge tv screen I was trying to watch in summer 2016, then showed up every weekend after, putting on the show I was watching while staring at me as I was trying to get work done.... a guy who looked like him, who used to record his voice and play it back loudly, showed up later multiple times in the lounge and in the gym, once coming to the cardio room with a big chested, short haired, white female who got on the machine right next to mine while he loudly flirted with her and she spoke coyly with him.... even though I've only given him disgusted looks
Another time I noticed that the basketball room was empty for a while and asked the pinoy looking instructor, charlston f, if I could use the equipment he'd offered to let me use if the court was available.... he agreed then walked in with an older fat black man who looked like the desperate loser mentioned just before, and told me that since I wasn't using most of the court he was going to let that guy play.... long after charles stopped taking classes there I noticed I was missing a few unique unisex shirts exactly like he'd worn which I had been planning to give to charity but couldn't because scheming as*holes have kept up years of fucking with my life almost daily
The large chested white woman also started showing up for classes held by festejo, after I attended a few times, usually wearing a spaghetti strap tank top anonymous 3 years ago
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