too much

I am always there for people, no matter what they have done to me or how I feel. If I say one thing about myself the majority of the time it is looked over or bashed on. I only feel safe and listened to when I talk to my crush but I'm pretty sure he doesn't feel the same. We get along really well whenever we hang out but my "family" (not biological) keeps making comments on us and our relationship, telling us not to kiss and stuff like that. Now this behavior from your relatives is expected but not at the sensitive stage we are at right now. I just want someone I can talk to without judgement or biased. Also, all of a sudden there is drama going on with my normally unproblematic friends and it makes me just want to completely separate myself from them and anything involving them. I'm starting to feel empty again and I really don't want to. I'm scared that I'm going to sink into a depressed state again and I can't afford that right now with work, school, and band. I also have a new reputation to keep up and I've never been one to really care about.

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Lilly Miscellaneous October 09, 2020 at 9:44 pm 0 0