I m not holding grudges I m just confused

I live in a foster home with other girls. So there's this girl who was my best friend like a sister literally. Let's call this girl Gabriela so we have this really tight bond. Of course, we've had our fair shares of problems because that's normal. One time I almost lost her friendship but I didn't but I most definitely was ignored for a few days and it was painful. So after a while like months I think. But before I get into that I need to explain that Gabriela has a gift. This gift of hers is that she knows what you're feeling like literally. And well she hates being called a witch. So there's this other girl let's call her Briana and she's also a friend of mine but not as close to me as Gabriela. So Briana would kind of lose control or something like that and would act out. Make nasty comments, and one day I was in a mini discussion with Gabriela and we weren't talking so me and Briana were in the bathroom since it was divided into 2 stalls like in schools. And we were talking because we couldn't sleep and we were bored. Gabriela was also in the bathroom like I said divided into stalls and stuff. Literally like a school bathroom. So then Gabriela had a pimple on her forehead and she was talking to herself saying that it looked like a third eye. So then Briana comes in and says "you know that witches have 3 eyes" and then we kept on talking and I kinda laughed at the comment but because I didn't know what to do. So I kinda got in a lot of trouble and Briana as well. Briana and Gabriela weren't as good friends before. Gabriela forgave me after some th=ime but this time I had lost her for real and she also forgave Briana. But what I don't get is why are those two closer than ever and Gabriela just plain ass ignores me acting like we were never friends. I tried so so so very hard to get her back as a friend. I think my dignity was even to the floor. I lost myself trying to get her back and nothing worked, so one day I finally decided to just let it all go because I wasn't going to keep on hurting myself to get someone back into my life again someone who didn't want to be back in my life. But every time I try to do a favor for her or even help just a little bit she says no like I'm fine and I feel like saying back to her like it's ok dude it's not like I'm asking you for a friendship in return. And it just bothers me so much that it was Briana who made the comment and she was forgiven and she still has her friendship with while I have shit. I just really want to ask Gabriela why this has happened because I don't think it's fair. Yes, I made a terrible mistake but hasn't everyone made a mistake it makes no sense.

---

Isabella Friends May 10, 2021 at 11:13 am 0 0