LOSING INTEREST IN CLUB

Okay so this isn't even really an angry rant but I like need to get it out there. So I'm the VP of this debate club at my school and there is this conference coming up that I completely forgot about. I was supposed to write these papers for it and just completely forgot and just about ghosted everyone in my club because it was stressing me out so much. I literally broke down crying every time I went to work on it and it was just awful. The thing is though I couldn't and still can't ask for help on it because the president of the club hates me and the advisor would probably just scold me for being irresponsible (which is valid). So, I'm just kind of internally freaking out. I don't really want to be the VP of this club anymore, I've kind of just lost interest and I don't think I want this responsibility right now. I ran for VP as a freshman, and I was just super over-ambitious and should NOT have run for that. I don't know how to tell the advisor I want to step down mid-year, especially since VP runs the club at the middle school so he would have to find someone else to fill that spot and it would just be like super embarrassing and he would be pissed. I think I'm going to email the advisor tonight and just get everything out there. It would just be so much easier if the people in this club like respected me or didn't act like I was lesser than them just because I'm the youngest in cabinet. I like the club but as a hobby not a full-time thing I have to worry about. It's hard to balance out all my clubs and stuff and this isn't something that I even want to pursue after high school. I'm quite literally working my way into a private art school right now for an illustration major. I'm more so just angry with myself for not being able to commit and like putting everyone else through this hassle of me quitting. It really just isn't for me anymore and I just want to be a regular member.

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anonymous School January 07, 2024 at 4:11 pm 0 0