I don t worth being here

I just hate it, because of school most of the time. I have so much work, but I try to not thinking about it, trying to avoid them. It's just stupid and a waste of time, i know it but I'm scared. I'm a fucking idiot, I don't understand a fucking thing, I keep asking for help, i'm usless. They say I keep watching too much my phone, and yes I agree, but I don't want the stres to come, that's the only way I think. If I just don't exist maybe I wouldn't annoy anyone, that I won't feel a burden. I want to hurt myself, but I'm scared, I'm scared of fucking everything and I hate that too. I though a few months ago these thougts desapeard, and it did, but it all came back. It feels like a endless loop. Is my life just worth of work ? Will I never heep real hapiness until I die ? After school, then what ? A job, you still have to fucking work, stress always coming, thoses thoughts that keep crawling. I want to cry, but I feel that my pain is nothing compared to others, and I'm just trying to get pity. I just feel empty, I should have enjoyed more my childhood.

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Magiee Work February 02, 2023 at 2:37 pm 0 0