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i do to much for this family fr. Whenever I want something I can't have it yet I have to be the one that carries everything for my mom. My older sister is useless and i feel like i've taken so many responsibilities. I found out my dad has cancer, my mom told me a few days ago. She told me not to tell any of my siblings and that she just needed someone to talk to. Saying that she didn't want to 'stress out' my older sister. What about me? what about the way I feel? My mom doesn't care. I think my cat is having weight problems and my cat has been my lifeline for me since these past years have been really rough for me. My cats been there for me when my mom should've. I wnt to take her to the vet and I was talking to my mom and she said she had so much going on she'd rather kill herself. If my cat dies I wouldn't hesitate to go with her because I know I wouldnt be able to handle it. No one seems to really care or even ask how I am emotionally. Through all this I think my moms just assuming I'm fine. I'm not. I wish I had an adult to confide in, or to talk to. And adult that cares about me the way my mom should. I don't know how to feel everything with school and all has been so hard for me. Everythings just adding up and I'm holding in the way I feel because I don't want to stress my mom out. Maybe it's not my moms fault for not knowing. I keep putting on this happy face around everyone, even my best friend. I'm doing a lot more work then my siblings to lower the work for my parents. I've been sleep-deprived because of fucking school god I hate school. I just feel like shit. And I still have tons of fucking art hw I could go on and on about my art teacher he keeps on piling up work. We are less then 2 weeks in and we need to have around 10 pages of our huge sketchbooks completed. Its realism like working with 3d objects and stuff which I hate with my whole being. Not to mention I got my period yesterday, and terrible cramps to come with it.

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Fluffy Parents September 17, 2021 at 9:51 pm 0 0