bleh older sis stab die blehhh

I want my sister and her birds dead. I won't kill them myself most likely but I wish someone did or something. I want her dead I want her to be tortured and burned alive that's how much I hate her. She's a disgusting bitch. I'm never going to feel secure in myself because of her. She has made me miss out on emotions and made me experience new ones I know aren't normal. To no end, I want her dead. Those stupid fucken birds 2. I don't hate animals I fucking love cats have a cat of my own and she's like my kid, I like other birds but the 3 she has I fucken hate. I wish my cat would kill them already. I wish at least one of them would die so I don't deal with this fucken chirping and shit. she and her birds deserve to die a miserable death. I like imaging myself stabbing and killing her It feels so refreshing like I'm free. The only way I will realistically get that feeling of freedom with my capabilities is by leaving or depending on her 2 leave. I know ill get shit for this, I know I need to talk to a psychiatrist or something, But I want to feel her blood on my hands,, actually no I think I'd puke touching her or anything that comes out of her, I just want to hear the noises the knife makes when I stab her. I won't even be able to I hate 2 admit it but she's stronger than me. I wish I had a distraction from this other than sleeping, a real distraction. Something to get away but I don't want to leave. I've attempted a few times b4 it has never worked, I don't want to try again. the problem is not me it's her, but it's all about maturing and letting go. I need to let go of the shit she's done to me, put up with it till I can leave, and live out the rest of my life forgetting that ever happened. I want to be with someone who fucks me good, only requirement ngl. My whole rant rn makes me sound fucken crazy I think I have a pretty good grasp on myself though, just dangling by a string, and it's falling apart, really really fast.

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Fluffy Siblings February 13, 2022 at 7:56 pm 0 0