Is this what rapunzel felt like

My sister got a boyfriend who lives on the other side of the country and I'm terrified of her moving in with him because what if I see her less until it's just once every year? She's the only one I can talk to about stuff, though only a few things, I'm keeping so many secrets from everyone. I told her that I have a few internet friends that I talk to everyday, I don't have any. I don't know why I lied to her about something like that but she has so many and I guess I just wanted to be like her a few years ago and the lie kinda stuck, can't turn back now. I think I'm going crazy cause I've started talking to myself in my head and sometimes I pretend fictional characters are hanging in my room just so I can feel what having friends is like. I go to college soon and I'm absolutely terrified. The only person I speak to everyday is my mom and that's just a few hours, soon I'll have to interact with so many people and I don't think I'm ready to go back into a school setting even if it's only been a year. I went outside for the first time in about a month yesterday, I think I've done something to myself cause I always get headaches when I go out.

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InATower Relationships February 16, 2019 at 6:51 pm 1 0