Can t keep it going anymore

I just can't keep it up anymore. The wife and all her medical and mental issues, the doctors, the meds, the extreme mood swings. Her parents that are in ill health and always being the only one that gets called on when they need help. Getting groceries, rides to the doctor, clean the house, take the car to be inspected, fix the tv, fix the phones, pick up medication and then there is the Wifes dog. I spent months telling her I don't want another dog, don't get a dog, if you do its all on you to train and take care of it - boom she got a dog and does ZERO with it. Then the constant interruptions while I am working - I work from home - so I must have ALL the time in the world to answer text, make calls for doctor appointments, it just goes on. No No I don't I am F*n WORKING! IT's why I don't get to bed till 2 or 3 am because I have to get caught up on what I didn't get done while you were freaking bothering me.

a decade now this is going on a full decade and I have tried to stop doing for all of them and the result, in-laws in hospital because of missed meds, wife having an emotional and mental breakdown because she can "adult" and take care of herself.

I am drained, mentality, physically, emotionally. I cant recall the last time I smiled at anything, relaxed, enjoyed ANTYING. I was living with the "it is what it is" motto and now, I just quiet, peace, a little understanding that while I have been taking care of everyone around I have not had time to take care of myself. My health is gone to shit, gained weight, blood sugars are uncontroled, and so soooo much stress with no outlets.

I just cant keep going.

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Tango Miscellaneous April 15, 2022 at 4:41 pm 0 0