My worth

I want to die the more and more I breathe, I can’t handle anything I can’t handle anyone. I hate the pressure to find something I love in the next few months or else I’m gonna die poor and disowned and never manage to develop a passion or skill. I feel like I have nothing to lose because I’m always going down, I’m always losing something and I’m always crying one day or another. I don’t love anything because my parent ruins everything, and I mean everything for me. I used to love theatre more than I loved anything but I haven’t even started joining a local theatre and I’m being pressured to sign up and start looking the moment I even suggest I’m passionate about something. My love for theatre died away in that very second my parent told me to go off and do all these great things through it in no time. I just need time. My worth means everything to me. I want to be in those Sci-Fi films where the MC is the only one who didn’t get their time stopped because I need that peace so so much. I feel like as long as the earth spins I’m suffocating, I’m drowning and I’m dying as quickly as my heart is beating. I have no future and no passion and it’s all destroyed because I’m so worthless and dead. I’m dead. I feel dead I feel nothing. I’m so unwanted I don’t even have two parents. I’m so unwanted even my soul doesn’t want my body, even my brain doesn’t want to process I’m alive. My ice cream sandwich is the only reason I even consider getting help. I’m such a disappointment but I’m even disappointments can enjoy ice cream.

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anonymous Miscellaneous July 10, 2022 at 7:43 pm 2 0