Definitely oversharing

i currently live with my mom, grandma, aunt, aunts bf, uncle, 9 dogs, and a cat. i has born on the east coast but my grandma got sick, so we moved to Utah. We lived with her and her husband. It was good but i was struggling being away from my family on the east coast. Whenever i brought it up, they told me I'm exaggerating. Stuff happened and i ended up in behavioral hospitals 11 times. Then 2 residentials. Shit didn't work out between my grandma and her husband, we moved to a new state, i had to leave my best friends. They were the only people that i felt safe with. We drove to AZ and moved in. my cousins are a bunch of drug addicts and alcoholics. but they understood what i was feeling and kept me away from drugs. didn't want me going down that road. There were big fights and i haven't seen them in months. My uncle and i fight a lot. Hes in his 30's. He doesn't have much of a filter, so he says fucked up stuff sometimes. In the pass i struggled with bulimia. Recently, he made a comment while i was making lunch about me lying Abt my problems. At first i tried to ignore it but that ended quickly. His mom (my grandma) defends him no matter what. I told him i was suicidal one time and he asked if i wanted a box cutter. No one believes it tho. My grandma makes a lot of comments Abt food and my weight. My aunt is two faced. Tell me she understands and tells everyone else I'm selfish and overreacting. My mom just doesn't want to deal with it. Everyone tells me it's my fault and that i need to be the bigger person. Which i understand, just difficult. I try to do everything i can. 4.0 gpa graduating high school 2 years early, 7 months clean of sh and purging. not enough. im just done trying. I really just want to leave. I have nowhere to go tho. idk stuck here for a while.

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Ray Parents January 16, 2022 at 6:41 pm 1 0