I have school on Monday and I m scared

I have in-person school for the first time since last March and I have no idea what to do. I have really bad social anxiety so I have been dreading going back to school for a while. I don't want to see people from my old school, don't want to bring back old memories. I was so fake around my old friends, we were all fake. I don't want to go back to being that way. The only people I know at this school are my old friends who didn't really like me and I didn't really like them. I feel bad for pretending to be friends with people I don't want to be around but at the time I thought it was better than being lonely. I don't like feeling alone but at least it's better than being fake. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I've changed a lot but I'm afraid I'll go right back to the way I used to be.
I have school on Monday and I am not ready at all.
If anyone read this, thank you!

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anonymous School February 26, 2021 at 11:17 pm 0 0