Senior year reality

So I am a senior in high school and I graduate in a couple of months. When the school year started, I knew I was going to try my hardest to get the highest of marks and graduate with a high percentage. When we were done with the first semester, we got our reports cards and I wasn’t very proud of my percentage. I was determined to try my hardest to get an even higher percentage in the second semester. When the second semester came around, I was doing good at the beginning of it. Suddenly my midterm scores were the worst they have ever been. I have never gotten grades this bad in my life. I was so mad at myself and confused because I payed so much attention in class, and studied so hard but when it was time to do our midterms, I was considered to have one of the lowest marks in class. I am so frustrated in myself because I don’t know what i’m doing wrong. I concentrate in class and do my assignments, but when it comes to midterms I did the worst. Was I putting too much pressure on myself to be the best and end up with the worst? I just want to make myself and my parents proud, but im just disappointing myself. They still don’t know about all the bad scores that I have gotten, I feel like I would disappoint them if I told them about them. I predicted all my averages and calculated them to see what I would most likely get. The percentage wasn’t that bad but I definitely wanted to get higher. When I told my mother about the new school system, I told her that I calculated my averages and told her what I think I would get. She didn’t look that proud, she told me that I would hopefully get a higher percentage. If only she knew about all the bad scores I’ve been getting. I just want to make myself and my parents proud, but it’s too late now. I stressed myself out and got the worst marks. How can I be less harsh on myself?

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anonymous School March 13, 2020 at 8:28 am 3 0