And you call yourselves good parents

I made a mistake a few months ago, I won't specify what it was, but let's just say I don't know how to fix it. There wasn't anything happening from this after I did it, but few months later my family and I are getting bad consequences from it now. I feel really guilty from this, and I've apologized multiple times, but instead of being mature adults and understanding I never meant for any of this to happen, they remind me everyday that it was me who made the mistake, and it's all my fault. (Some examples) "Great, now I can't access my Netflix account" or "Now it's not letting me into my gmail account" or "Now my phone number is your phone number" etc. I get it, they have the right to be mad, they have the right to be upset with me, but reminding me daily and making me feel worse about it everyday is not going to.do anything. And it truly came to my attention how much they're respect for me as decreased when I came home from school today (already in a bad mood must I add) expecting to be greeted with the usual "Hi, welcome back. How was school? Anything fun happen?" I was greeted by a not-so-friendly " What's the password to your phone? " And I got nothing more, if they came to my room it was to ask for a password of some kind, or what's not working. Nothing else. And don't get started with "Oh, but maybe that just couldn't tell you were feeling shirty today" because my mom literally said, and I quote "I do not care if you're having a bad day, this is all happening because of YOU." Not to mention, I'm already in a VERY fragile mental state, this just makes things worse. And they'd be willing to risk my own education, which could affect my future drastically, for they're own needs. They were literally up my ass, glaring at me across the room until I was done studying for a test that I have tomorrow that will make my grade drop from an A- to a D- in seconds if I fail it. I'm practically silenced in my own house, if I say anything to them, they make me feel like a piece of shit. And I've thought of killing myself or running away multiple times because of them. And this isn't the first time they've been shitty to me. My mom is a certified manipulative bitch. When I was only 10, she told me that everyone thought poorly of me and thought I was manipulating her and thought that I should just kill myself, all because I needed to go to.the bathroom with her because I was scared. And my dad on multiple occasions has almost slapped me out.of anger for some things I can't control. I hope they come to they're senses soon, because the moment I turn 18, I'm moving out and cutting off any type of communication method if they don't get they're shut together.

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anonymous Parents April 28, 2022 at 9:29 pm 0 0