im so weak

I wish I had treated you better. You were mine but you spent the majority of your life with other people.

You were so cool! I will love you forever. You were so beautiful, and violent! I am so out of touch with life and reality I can't properly process this.

I hope more than anything I played no role in your death. I wish I had responded better to your misbehaving. I did the research! I was too lazy to do anything. I love you and miss you. You were one of a kind and I didn't appreciate you enough. I am sorry. I love you.

I don't think there has ever been a cat like you, Ripper. Life is so fragile. Life is always more complicated than it needs to be. We all forget too much. Our vulnerabilities leave us weak and our best intentions get washed away.


lastly.. I am a bit afraid of cremation... If the soul resides in the body and you split it up, could it go wandering the wastes of the afterlife looking for what it is missing? I have no fear of death. I don't give a shit; but I would hate myself so much if i ruined the afterlife of someone i love.

There may be no afterlife. Who the fuck knows. I loved you. I love you :( i pray, upon death, all creatures gain omnipotence and they can see. I wish i neglected so much less; ill try not to. i know where I go while stressed.. Unless i've lost my mind, it'll be easy to find my way back. i remember crying so much as a kid and everything like, kept breaking along the way..

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Honest Miscellaneous July 08, 2018 at 6:22 am 1 0