What is going on

I don't know what is going on but I don't understand why people are hating on me and why people want me to die and then I don't understand why people threaten me. I don't understand why anyone or anything wants me to die.

Why do people hate me? Why would anyone hate me? I don't get it. I am concerned for my safety because I am not doing anything wrong.

There is something wrong with people who hate me. I'm sick of people attacking me, then trolling me, and then telling me something is wrong with me.

I can't be social when people are horrible to me all the time. People twist everything I say and take it out of context. It pisses me off.

Then something else happened that made me nervous, it was about my therapist. Why does my therapist gets annoyed during our sessions?

It feels like she gets annoyed and I don't understand why. I don't know if it's the internet disconnecting or what. But I guess if it doesn't have anything to do with me I shouldn't even wonder about it but I mean I am a curious person. That is why I wanted to know.

Then another thing, that is creepy, is when people talk about my death and or talk about death around me. I feel like I am around a lot of creeps.

I don't know why people hate me so much that they want me dead. I don't understand. But, whatever forget it.

I don't like being around people because they ruin my life anyway. I don't know why I was curious anyway. It's pointless. Also, back to what I was saying before, I am tired of people attacking me and saying I'm a villain and or that I am emo.

I didn't do anything to anyone and they act as I did. I don't know why. It seems no one understands how I feel. When people or someone says they do it makes me mad because they haven't lived my life with me.

I don't want to be around negative people. I'm looking for people who treat me with love and it's not my fault that people are horrible around me. I'm trying to avoid them. I am not negative and if people accuse me of it then that is not my fault either.

About my therapist again, she said, "but you have really good coping skills". I don't know why she said that and she seems rude to me because she gets annoyed during our sessions and I don't want to work with her that much anymore.

What she says is one-sided and I just ignored her. I didn't know what she was talking about. That is why I decided to slowly stop seeing her. I'm just frustrated that she gets annoyed with me because I'm just being myself.

Even if it's the internet, disconnecting, I just wish she would say something. I'm not the one getting annoyed so I shouldn't, I just wish people would communicate better. That's all. I feel I am articulate and I say what I feel.

Then again, I don't feel like I am having a hard time communicating. But when I used that word it triggers me because I had an experience with people who hated me for using "I" and "me" they were being rude to me and I don't know why.

It felt like people were making fun of me and people always make fun of me. I hate it and it makes me wish I was dead.

No one understands and no one knows what it's like to be hated and then made fun of all the time. Then people online troll me and say all these hateful things that aren't true.

Like one said that I had an ego issue and they were blaming me for what is wrong with them, then another was telling me to "grow up".

Then another was rude to me and asked me if I thought I was the only human and I never did. It just made me mad that I'm treated this way.

I don't understand what is wrong with people. Why do people give me dirty looks? Why do people seem like they hate me when they look at me?

I don't hate myself so I am not sure what is wrong and why people show me they are disgusted. It's not right and I don't understand why people like to show they hate me.

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anonymous Miscellaneous November 28, 2022 at 3:36 pm 0 0