I KINDA SERIOUSLY LOVE MY BF

So I’ve had a best friend now for about 5 years, I’ve gotten to know her really well and just in general really like her. She’s super religious and feels no one likes her, but I am bisexual. Only problem we are both girls and it’s against the religion, today we were on a call and I sent her a picture of myself and a penguin. I apologized for looking like shit and she said nahh she’s into messy hair she thinks it’s hot????? I just lost it and felt myself getting horny, we’re ending high school this year and I’m aware I may not see her if she moves and o just have such strong feelings for her. She says ily to all her friends but I just realllllyyyyyy like her and I know if I tell her she’d say “awe cute but I don’t feel the same” and then it would get awkward. I’ve been feeling so emotionally bad abt this that I’ve gotten actually sick. It really upsets me how she would never even think about it.. she laughed a lot on the call because I was using lots of humor to keep her on longer, he laugh is so intoxicating? I love they was she laughs and how pure she is??? Lit I’m losing my mind over her.

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M Crushes August 18, 2020 at 8:29 pm 5 0