I m so upset

I'm so upset right now but I have no one to talk about this with because everyone will get mad at me.
My gf doesn't like my bestfriend. Not everyone has to like each other to get along somewhat so I didn't have a problem with this at first.
My bestfriend is curently homeless and she is staying at my place for the time being.
Now my gf refuses to call me because she knows my bestfriend is here.
Idk what to do. I just love her so so much. I have my whole future planned out with her. She is such a wonderful woman and I feel like my life finally has meaning with her in it. She just refuses to meet and get along with the people that were there for me in my most darkest times. My friends were always there for me and are actually the reason I decided not to end my own life.
I know she doesn't like meeting new people and has a really hard time with it but I also can't help but to feel hurt because she can't even be on the phone with me when someone else is there. I know this sounds incredibly selfish but I am so hurt that she can't even do a simply call for me.
We are somewhat long distance so I understand not wanting to share our limited time but a call?
Idk what im supposed to do? I love her so so much and I can't inagine life without her now but I am not going to be a shitty friend and drop all my 5+ year realationship with my best friend just because she doesn't like her.
My gf also doesn't even pretend like she cares about my best friend being homless. She always asks "Is she still there?" everytime she wants to call me like I haven't told her already that she has pretty much nowhere else to go. I'm just so upset that she can't even pretend for me.
I know this is not true and that she loves me too but I sometimes feel like she doesn't care how I feel about things.
It's always "Why do I have to meet them?" , "Is it really that important?" , "Can't I just never meet them?" when I disclosed to her many times that I just want my loved ones to get along and that at least a one time meeting is so important to me. I just don't understand why she can't pull herself together just a little for me.
I can't even answer a phonecall when she's with me because Im scared she'll feel neglegted.
Last time she and my bestfriend were in a room together I had to awkwardly go from one person to the other constantöy because she didn't want to be in the same room as her?
I have called off so many plans with friends just so she doesn't feel bad, even when I really wanted to go.
I'm so scared that everybody will leave me again but I can't please everyone. I just want everybody to get along. Is that seriously too much to ask for?
I don't know what Im going to do at my birthday. Im not going to uninvite my best friends because she doesn't like them. I'm so fucking scared. I don't want her to leave me. She's the best thing that ever happend to me and in every aspevt except for this my absolute dream girl.
She doesn't want to do things because she's scared our relationship won't survive it. I get that she has trust issues and I am gently working on breaking her walls down. Im just so sad.
I don't know what to do.
I have never loved anyone so much before. I have never genuienly missed someone before. I have never cried about someone like this before. Someome tell me what to do pls

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beesechurger Relationships March 21, 2022 at 8:36 am 0 0