Interests

Honestly, I've been interested in military and tactical gear for a while and other interests in the past; may seem odd but it's actually really fucking cool, and I've been interested in this for years so my last birthday I asked for tactical gear.
Mind you.. I have a mental disorder called schizoaffective it's a mood disorder (Bipolar one) and schizophrenia mixed; Every single interest I have she says I can't do because I'm going to have a problem with my mental mind-set, for example tactical gear she came up with a bullshit excuse these exact words "You're going to go into a manic episode and go outside then get shot and killed." she ruining my teenage years I swear, sometimes I want to knock the common sense into her to see how much she's effecting my mental health. And recently I'm going through court for sexual assault since my grandpa sexually assaulted me, I have a shit ton to deal with and to make myself feel better I keep forcing manic episodes, so I disassociate from this bullshit, I almost burst out crying every time I'm around people.

Back to the topic, she says no to interests because of my mental disorder and another example I wanted to ride horses she said, "horses sense human emotions and you usually get random bursts of paranoia so one will most likely throw you off, so no." blaming it on my mental disorder yet again.
I wanted to try hiking she said, "You might start hallucinating while on a hike, you shouldn't do that."
She won't even let me outside alone, I have to have one of my brothers with me, but they don't usually want too; And she's confused when I stay in my room all day on my computer, phone and iPad.

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anonymous Parents November 20, 2023 at 1:18 pm 1 0